whats up my loves!
i think im finished with xanga for awhile...
i just have other things to concentrate on...school...family...friends...and repairing something that means so much to me...but uhhh u kno that once ya gurl is up on her feet again, ill be back to halla atchall!
until then here's one last update...
so lately my life hasnt been exactly peachy, but hey life throws us turns right?some that hurt us more than anything in world...but we get through them and build ourselves up stronger...my mom taught me that...
school has been really good this semester actually ive been more alert and trying to get where i need to be...
friends have played a big role in my life the last few days...and i want to thank you for all your support and little things to make me laugh....lol susie its tha heat between our hands..."hahahah juuuust kiiidding" (lol)
i've been writing alot of songs lately actually, and working on some poems, i never really realized that i liked to do that before tha last few weeks...i mean ya i wrote before then, but its become a regular now....and yeah, it's a stress outlet...
but yeah i think thats all i really have to say!!!
laters...
always n' foreva,
ya gurl...known as...babi J
and to you O:
i look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those deep brown eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek...and i wonder...will everything be ok...is this it...and you slowly turn away...
will you be back?
and for tha rest of you guys i wrote this awhile back and it plays right now in my life i guess...
life!!!!
life is complicated,
full of twists,and stacked with turns,
coping with loves,and rises,
coping with crashes and burns.
learning to love a man,
and growing up from a small child,
leaving friends behind,
frowning,and unhappiness,happiness and smiles
loving someone so much,
you feel like its too good to be true,
and then finding out it was,
and spending months so blue
challenges thrown by school,
suddenly expected to be grown up,
wishing you were again that little child,
feeling like you have had enough
those days you cry in your pillow,
because life has you down,
hiding your tears from the world,
feelings unprofound.
hoping wishing and waiting
for the one who will love you always,
debating whether they will....
or if no love ever stays...
praying to god on my knees,
lord help me through the day,
help me to make the right decisions,
respect myself,and to obey...
rules to get me through life,and what i know is right in my heart,
help me to be strong now...keep my head up, and be smart... | 
